 Currently 16 going 17 July 11th, 1992 TPJCian Ex-Queenstownian Ex-Fairsian Elemental Muse
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12:43 AM .jpg) Just like the Sun rises from the East and sets at the West, like how humans started talking to each other in the past, and perhaps like how love can take over one's life.
I should have known. It's already a habit to place the left and right ear-pieces together when i pack my things. I should have known that ear-pieces are made using magnets that repell each other. Just by putting two ear-pieces together can cause damage to both of them. The cold night have taken my toes. The wind picked up again, this time stronger then usual. I stood at the deserted corner outside, alone. My ear-pieces dropped. Once again, silence and darkness roamed my heart. I stared into blank space. An impressionistic art piece lie flat infront of me. Splatted with colourful poke-dots below with a paper-thin cloud above. Everything was perfect till i see the dark side of the picture. That dark, cold, empty side of the picture brought back many countless memories. I need to do something! I sat on razor-sharp grass, and blood from the heart ooze out of the body like a river of water raging down it's upper course. Pain from within worsened when a knife from elsewhere penetrates the already dying heart. From Zeus, FW-ed message.
"Sorry to disturb. Tell cx to shut up. And this is my way of replying him, by having you as my messenger. Tell him at least I have my rights to choose a friend." Nevermind. It's okay. I can bear with the pain. I don't need medication. I don't need other's help. But I want the World to know, I AM HERE! I don't bother about my social status. I don't care who I am with, where I am. I DON'T EVEN GIVE A DARN TO WHETHER MY LIFE's AT STAKE. The D.I.S.C. personality test concludes that I have a type "I" personality. The test was apparently inaccurate. I lost hope to other prediction tests. But my mindset changed when i saw the fear-factor. "Type "I" Greatest Fear : REJECTION" What do I want? A normal friendship! Valentines' day is nothing but a normal day that comes and go. I don't ask for whatever likes nor love. I didn't even ask for physical contact. I seek nothing else but a pair of listening ear and an encouraging mouth. God is good. =) He helps you in everything you do that will glorify his name in a way or another.
Steading when one's still underage will be a reason why people kept breaking and are never together again. He took them away. One-by-one, they left me, in the darkness, alone. Lost, confused. Not knowing what to do next. Can i forget them and pretend nothing had ever happened? Thoughts of wanting the nice time with Friends and not God, floats up to the surface of my mind, and I did exactly that. The song “月牙弯” by F.I.R. started ringing in my mind. "看..月牙湾下的泪光 在丝路之上被遗忘 是谁的心啊 孤单的留下 他还好吗 我多想爱他 那永恒的泪 隐藏那一句话 也许可能蒸发" Why is this happening. No one knows. No one can explain. How much I wish i can find an answer to it. I wanted nothing. Except for only one. I need someone. One who can accept me for who i am. One who can understand me. One who can be my friend. Friday, February 15, 2008ISA TSD Practical MYE Assessment'o9 TPJChoir
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