Elementary Mathematics Paper One? Very, very manageable. I'm culpable for not being able to finish the paper on time. I failed to think fast enough despite being fatigued after the paper. But I'm confident enough to attain at least a B for now, and as for "O"s, an A, hopefully.

Music was quite interesting today!
Was not really in the mood for anything after that darn two papers in the morning. But Nelson's superb music skills motivated me to be like him one day. "I MUST PLAY LIKE HIM!" Yes, I can't sing, well. But practical skill wise, I believe I can reach his standard, the experts' standard.
Oh, and I can't deny the fact that he sing and plays (bangs) the piano real loud! I mean, really, really loud. Nelson's performance was heard by almost EVERYONE in the sound-proof Arts Conservatory despite not using a microphone, an amplifier, or anything else. Amazing isn't it?
If you doubt my words, what I've said is proven by Miss S, the music consultant.

Me, “Nelson can sing you know?”
Ms S, "Yeah I know! His singing is SUPERB!"
Me, "You mean... You heard it?"
Ms S, "Everyone who was here heard it!"
Padma, "Ha-ha! Yeah! He was SO CUTE!"
Me, "gasps."

The best part was, Nelson actually taught me a lot more ways to manipulate a chord using broken-chords! And I’m so gonna try it someday.

Benjamin’s weird. Its examinations period and he’s not studying but choreographing dance-steps? What’s more, Padma, a triple-science, double math student, actually joined him and helped him choreograph his weird break dance? Unimaginable.

Well. If you are currently very into examinations and is dying for more, you might want to consider taking some weird papers in a school that is near Redhill MRT station. Want to know more about this school? You can definitely contact Benjamin, the founder of this idea of having super long papers. Want to know how long these papers are? Here’s a portion of their Examination Time-table.

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Shocked? Ha-ha! I definitely am. Want to try? No way am I going to do that! But if there’s anyone who is interested, explore the school just right opposite Quest (Queenstown Secondary) and you will find yourself facing a 14-hours long paper, only if you're unlucky enough that is.

Labour Day's tomorrow, intensive revision's required. Not only for the Midyears and the Prelims, but most importantly, the "O"s! Hope I'd survive till the next Sunset!

After analysing the reasons for us to face politics at such young age, I somewhat think that teachers are not the main culprit. Look, everyone has a senior. What’s worse is that the higher your ranking is in an organization, the more you fear. So much so that you may find yourselves vanquished by them to the extent whereby one would even have murderous thoughts in them to have a simple promotion. I’d admit that I’m one who will go to all means to demote the party I detest. However, is there a need to do so in the first place?

The hatred one might have to a certain senior is unavoidable. No one in the World will love all their seniors especially when there’s jealousy around. But what can we do to prevent this from getting into our way? Hatred is an emotion in which it will devour our conscious of doing things well. It will, however, change our attitude towards things and melt our positive thoughts of life, to do anything beyond our nature, just to get our goals.

Taming them is one of the ways I used to overcome hatred (on the surface). It makes you seems like a happier person everyday. No worries, no tears, no anger. Just follow the authorities’ instructions and do it to your best. And whenever there’s something wrong, just answer to your authorities in this manner, “You asked me to do it this way didn’t you?” Then ending it all with an innocent smile. Happy-go-lucky is the phrase that would be used to describe them. But deep in them, it’s a totally different story all together. Their dark secret might one day be let out. But before that, they would have backstabbed those whom they want to. Who have the right to judge them in this unfair society? No one.

Sharing is one of the most essential ingredient to bearing all sorts of emotional pain one might be having. But the person whom one’s sharing with must be close to one and that they are able to be trusted, else another backstabbing incident might just happen at your doorstep in time to come. Sharing allows one to oust their emotional stress out from the back of their heads and returning one a life in which they have always wanted. Isn’t it better this way?

Never say die.
Fight for your rights!
Find people whom you trust to share.
And everything would be alright!

Ans:

From the given lack of practise, I PREDICTED that I will do really badly for the exam even days before it. It's showed that I only chose my final solo pieces the minute before the exam. This means that I will have to focus on more songs than expected and therefore, losing precious practise time and performing badly during the exam.

However, there are other factors that lead to the failure of today's exam such as my solo pieces, the duet with Ben and my duet with Nelson.

I can infer from my solo pieces playing that they are really screwed. The 2 examiners said that I “fluctuated a lot” while I was playing the second song and that is why I was marked down and even though my first piece “isn’t that bad”. They are trying to portray the fact that I did really badly and stopped many times during the piece and therefore unable to score well for this section.

My duet with Nelson was pretty much a failure. This is due to the lack of practise with each other due to “excess CCA meetings” and “extra remedial lessons” this few months before the exam. Although I am “free almost every time” but whenever I’m free, Nelson will not be free. Worse of all, every time we’re free to actually practise, Ben will be there to interrupt. This therefore caused us to lose a lot of precious practise time and lose out under the coordination sector.

Benjamin did extremely well for his last minute duet with me. He “has not touched his violin since the End-Of-Year Exam last year” and that he’s planning to “sight-read through this exam” too. This shows that he wouldn’t practise his violin and will of course, perform really badly. This will also affect his sight-reading skills and his sense of rhythm and therefore, being unable to coordinate with me during the exam.

Therefore, I conclude that I had screwed my first midyear paper, the Music-Practical Paper, to a VERY GREAT EXTENT!

But now I’m all alone, in the darkness of the emotionless night sky. Just when I held my pen, my eyelids got heavier, my head started spinning, my fingers fell flat, I lie helpless on my work. I needed someone, who can accompany me, even at this hour of the day, someone who understands me, someone to talk to, someone whom I can trust, and someone who can be my friend.

Slides of memory flashed in my mind. There’s no one else capable of doing all that except the God whom I can’t seems to understand. To me, sometimes it’s just some work of the “super-natural beings” to me. And sometimes, I thought maybe there is really someone out there watching over me.

Can this stress period be a turning point of my Life? Can I learn more from Him rather then focusing everything on myself? Can I lean onto Him, a supposing “pillar-of-strength”?

A gamble’s worth it. Many living testimonies out in the World are being shared. Can I experience them too? I cling aimlessly to my every heartbeat, not knowing what my goal in Life is. A little more faith is all I need, to have my Life be your glory in future.

But as for now, Os seems to have taken over me. I can’t let go of them. It determines my Life. Coping is tough, and I alone can’t stand strong against the tides. I need someone, someone to lean on, someone who can listen to my cries, and someone who can be my friend.

Have me sent to the darkest corners of the World and I'll live solely on your name.
Help me cope with everything else and stay positive. Allow your will to be done on me, and to be seen by people around.

May this be my prayer.
Amen.