But now I’m all alone, in the darkness of the emotionless night sky. Just when I held my pen, my eyelids got heavier, my head started spinning, my fingers fell flat, I lie helpless on my work. I needed someone, who can accompany me, even at this hour of the day, someone who understands me, someone to talk to, someone whom I can trust, and someone who can be my friend.

Slides of memory flashed in my mind. There’s no one else capable of doing all that except the God whom I can’t seems to understand. To me, sometimes it’s just some work of the “super-natural beings” to me. And sometimes, I thought maybe there is really someone out there watching over me.

Can this stress period be a turning point of my Life? Can I learn more from Him rather then focusing everything on myself? Can I lean onto Him, a supposing “pillar-of-strength”?

A gamble’s worth it. Many living testimonies out in the World are being shared. Can I experience them too? I cling aimlessly to my every heartbeat, not knowing what my goal in Life is. A little more faith is all I need, to have my Life be your glory in future.

But as for now, Os seems to have taken over me. I can’t let go of them. It determines my Life. Coping is tough, and I alone can’t stand strong against the tides. I need someone, someone to lean on, someone who can listen to my cries, and someone who can be my friend.

Have me sent to the darkest corners of the World and I'll live solely on your name.
Help me cope with everything else and stay positive. Allow your will to be done on me, and to be seen by people around.

May this be my prayer.
Amen.